sometimes my feelings are buried under so many layers of stress and anxiety that it’s hard to remember a time when i had real emotions that didn’t involve compulsive thoughts
OCD isn’t just “being tidy” it’s
-being unsure about everything all the time
-vividly remembering doing something but worrying you didn’t do it
-worried you did something bad or wrong and you clearly didn’t.
-what if you did this “well I didn’t” are you sure?
-“are you sure” is pretty much the worst question to hear cause you’re never really sure
-double and triple (and so on) checking dates and times for meetings and appointments even though you know you have the right time
~obviously this is not an exhaustive list and I encourage people to add more~
“My heart gets sad sometimes. I’m not really sure why. It just starts to ache and my body begins to feel hollow. My mind wanders. I hate feeling like this. I don’t want to. But I can’t help it. My heart just feels heavy.”
I’m letting go. What is meant for me will be mine in the right timing if I continue to do my part. What is truly mine will still be mine even when I stop grasping it too tight. My focus is to stay grounded despite external influences and factors that are out of my control.
